Wednesday, August 13, 2008

so today i did a bunch

but it really equaled out to be not much if one were looking from the outside. I rearranged a certain flower bed that has been giving me considerable laughing streaks and quite a bit of embarrassment. I pruned things, even though I don't really know the proper way to do that, I just used my scissors to cut off ugly pieces, or ones that were in the way.Then I staked them, fertilized them, watered them, and obsessively kept an eye on the. Plants are a constant source of inspiration, perplexity, aggravation, pure bliss, itchiness, and co-dependence to me.. i guess that's better than heroin or paralysis..
so after my day planting and looking through my gardender's dictionary, i decided to take a break to sit at my work bench and listen to "wait wait don't tell me".. my inspirations came from the illustrations in the book of intricate seed patterning, phyllotaxis and the goddess of all weird and provoking flowers, the passiflora (passion flower).. and so this finger adornment was born.

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

I Need to Change Something

ok so i've approached this impasse. it's not so much a decision confusion as it is a decision impotence. i feel listless, and not even crazy listless, bored listless..
i've dug this hole in my being, this river in my brain, this tread on my tire, and it's not becoming of me..
i need to read more books, not listen to books on tape. i need to take more walks for leisure, not jog for weight loss. i need to play in the yard, really play in the yard, disregarding any weed i may see, disregarding any "valuable work time" I may be missing. I need to write letters to people I love instead of texting or emailing them. I need to be courageous, I need to be me again...